Dear young Karina,
First off, I want to say that even though things are tough in your personal life and you don’t quite understand a lot of the time why the people you love are in and out of hospital, it gets better, and so do they. Stay strong, and keep the people who care about you close, as they are still going to be here, even now that you are older.
Don’t let the people who laugh at you about your love of Mcfly get you down, they are a band that you love on a much more personal level, and only you know why. Don’t sit at home and cry about them people in school who think it’s stupid. Are they really worth it? You shouldn’t feel bad for being so passionate about something you love. You are going to get older and find other things you are going to be passionate about to, and look at you now, you don’t care what anyone thinks.. who would of thought!?
You may not be popular, and at times you wish you were, but you have the strongest friendships in school. When you leave school you might not see them all the time, or talk all the time, but they are always there, and will pull together when you need them most. You will soon realise who your real friends are, you will make new ones and lose old, but that group of friends will always be there. How lucky are you to say that those 5 girls you were best friends with in high school, are still your best friends today!
Love. Love is a strange thing. One minute your on top of the world and next your crying to your Mum and Dad wondering what went wrong. Those boys that break your heart make you stronger, and teach you a very valuable lesson, you just might not think it at the time. It’s not the end of the world, and you grow up and realise that they weren’t worth it, and they’ve made you who you are today. You’ll find someone now, who stands up for you, protects you and is the best shoulder to cry on, trust me on that. You can find love in the strangest of places, and they can be right under your nose, it might just take longer for you both to realise you love each other.
Remember you aren’t alone. You think when you leave school behind you that the rumours and whispers stay there. Wrong, so wrong. I’m sorry to say this but, it gets tougher as you get older. There’s days you will go back home and cry to your Mum, as much as it’s a little embarrassing to admit, it happens. You aren’t superwoman, you have feelings and sometimes it hurts a lot. Listen to those people who give you advice, as it will help you. If people want to listen to others and make a judgement on you, let them. If they whisper behind your back, and make you feel so small that you want to run to the toilets and cry, let them. Don’t ever feel intimidated by people, it’s easy enough for me to say now, I’ve gone through it, but to you, younger Karina, you haven’t. Stay strong, and as my favourite quote goes, ‘Kill them with kindess’.
You said you’d be in your job for a year, and then go away to college/uni. That didn’t happen but it’s ok, you’ll find your path eventually, everyone does. Have fun, enjoy yourself, and be you. It will eventually come to you, what you want to do with your life, no matter what age you are, it’s never too late.
Lastly, you might get upset that your teeth aren’t straight, and your skin is bad, but that clears up, as a skincare routine and braces are a wonderful thing. Please though, dump that bright blue eyeshadow, it really doesn’t do anything for you! You’ll grow up to be a beauty, fashion and lifestyle blogger, who would of thought!? You’ll learn that there’s more makeup brands besides Rimmel and learn how to use liquid eyeliner, it just all takes practise. Now you have so much makeup, everyone asks you why you need so much, but a girl can never have too much makeup!
So, enjoy your younger years and stay strong. Exciting things are around the corner!